From The Heart

There’s a quiet truth I’ve been circling for years now: I don’t do these things in spite of the suffering… I do them because of it. Not the Instagram version. Not the sunrise-on-a-ridge, arms-outstretched, life-is-beautiful #blessed kind of suffering. I mean the ugly stuff. The slow, grinding, question-everything, strip-yourself-bare kind of suffering. Years of searching for my own black hole of suffering. And in October 2025 at the Blackall 100, I finally found it. I’d set t